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Piotr is ensconced on a rock outside Milliways, with a large sketchpad in his lap and a pencil case sitting on his empty bag.

He's working with charcoal at the moment, and from memory. The image slowly taking shape is that of a woman, with long pale hair in a braid and a lopsided half-sad smile.

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Maya is graceful and quick; two smooth movements and she's up beside him and settling in, sitting cross-legged.

(She's far enough that they both have personal space, but close enough that a lean would put her on his shoulder.)

She leans over (but not far enough), peering inquisitively at the sketchpad in his lap. "What are--



"Oh."

Her thumb brushes the edge of the page; she drinks in the figure's sad eyes, its half-smile.

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He's unsure, now, if he should have set it aside; unsure if it bothers her to see this drawing of her old self, and self-conscious of it now.

He swallows another disclaimer -- it's nothing, only a sketch, only a thought -- and looks at her, and waits for a clue.

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It is the expression more than the physical changes, that gets Maya. She forgets that she looked like that. She never realizes that she looked like that, despite the strength and the humor that she can see in the figure's expression, too. Photographs are one thing; seeing herself filtered through someone else's gaze is something else entirely.

(She never thinks of herself as that beautiful, either, but Piotr apparently does.

The traitorous stray thought causes a dull flush to creep up the back of her neck, though it is swiftly stamped out by the second traitorous stray thought that she doesn't look like that any more.)

"It's beautiful, Piotr." Her voice is quiet, but firm in its surety. Her eyes flick up.

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Piotr -- doesn't flush, but the self-consciousness shows a bit more, for a moment, in the quirk of his smile.

"It is what I saw."

"Close," he amends. "Is not quite right." Because, as stated, he is a perfectionist. (No piece is ever quite right, for him. But some are closer than others.)

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(A funny discovery Maya's been making, the past few months: she can still blush. It may not be as strongly as it was when she was a gawky teenager first dating a certain tall boy who loved poetry and her eyes, but with her skin tone, there's no hiding it when she colors.

She'd thought she grew out of it years ago.)

Maya colors nicely.

"It looks pretty damn right to me," she says, her only concession to the subtle compliment (besides the blush lingering high in her cheeks) a slight duck of her head.

"--The likeness, I mean." Not the 'beautiful' part; she is not anywhere near egocentric or vain enough to make that comment.

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The thing is -- he drew her as he saw her, it's true. And it's a good likeness, even if the jawline's not perfect and the sweep of the hair's a little wrong and the eyes need something but he's not sure what. But he knows that when he drew her as he saw her -- as she was, simple fact -- it's strong, and sad, and beautiful.

Which is to say, she's blushing, and Piotr's light-skinned enough to have the faintest start of one in response. Which he ignores determinedly, in hopes that it isn't actually there.

"It's yours," he offers. "If you want it."

If she doesn't, that's fine too.

She doesn't look like that any more. Sometimes it's nice to have a reminder, and sometimes it's the last thing you want.

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Maya would really rather have a portrait of him -- or someone else she cares about -- than one of herself. But Piotr drew it and it's very beautiful, and she says, "Only if you sign it," a smile teasing at her lips.

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Piotr slants a glance at her, a little bemused but mostly amused.

And does so -- not the usual P (for Piotr in English, for Распутин in Russian) he puts in the corner of paintings, but his first name Пётр in a quick Cyrillic scrawl.

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Her only response to the amused glance is a sideways look, and a quirk of one side of her mouth.

She leans over, watching him sign the corner; she touches the edge of the paper just below it, her fingers careful. "What does it say?"

(She has a pretty good start of an idea, but he has multiple names. It is a valid question.)

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"Piotr." He hovers one broad, liberally charcoal-smudged finger over the letters, and sounds them out for her, one by one.

"In Russian letters. It would be different in English."

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She pulls her hand back and shakes her head, slowly.

"It's so strange; the lettering style looks so much like ours, but I can't read it."

Her voice is absent; she's watching his finger.

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"English letters were like that for me once. Before I learned it."

Telepathic infodumps for the win!

"How would you write it?" There's another, smaller sketchbook on his bag in the grass, underneath the pencil case. Or there are other pages in this pad. (Or, of course, just sketching with a finger in the air.)

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Maya follows his slight gesture, and she slides down to pick up the smaller sketchpad, and a pencil from the case. Setting the art supplies on the flat top of the rock, she clambers back up beside him.

She flips up the pad's cover; it opens to a blank page. She prints 'Piotr Rasputin' in neat, economical letters; no flowing script or loopy cursive here. Maya was an officer far too long for that.

(The lettering looks loosely Cyrillic-inspired; the 'N' is backward.)

"Like this," she says, and she holds the pad up. "Piotr Rasputin."

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Piotr cocks his head, studying the letters as they take shape.

"Strange," he says. "It is almost between -- may I?"

He wipes his hands on his jeans, slightly sheepishly, before he takes the pencil and pad; all the same there's enough charcoal left to leave a few faint smudges. He prints his name twice, more carefully and tidily than he signed the other picture: Piotr Nikolaievitch Rasputin, Пётр Николаевич Распутин.

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"--It's a cross," says Maya, studying the two (after readily handing over the paper and pencil). She shakes her head. "The similarities just keep piling up. I think our worlds were secretly separated at birth."

Her mouth turns upward; her eyes flick from the paper to Piotr. "Can you write my name like that?"

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"Da," he says, with a half-smile that says of course, and his pencil adds Майя Антарэс an inch or so below his names.

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She squints at it, blonde hair tumbling out from behind her ear and fanning across her cheek.

"It's so close," she says, wonderingly, and then she takes the pencil back, but doesn't bother moving the sketchpad from where it is balanced on Piotr's thigh. She leans over and writes, just below his version of her name: MAYA AИTAЯES.

She studies the two for an appraising moment, her hand resting on the warm rock beside his leg, and then she says, "I like yours." There's a strength to it -- and the mystery of being unable to read it -- that draws her attention.

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The corner of Piotr's mouth quirks up.

He steals the pencil back for a moment, and silently adds the English he'd forgotten to: Maya Antares, and after a moment's thought MAYA ANTARES in block capitals next to it.

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"You just flipped--" She looks at her name; looks at Piotr. "Is that another language?"

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"Capital letters. They are both English." His pencil hovers, indicating one then the other. "All capitals, like that, you would use in a newspaper headline, or perhaps a sign. Some people write so, too. Mostly it is this."

"Russian is similar -- this is the usual. But in all capitals it would be so." He writes, quickly: МАЙЯ АНТАРЭС.

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"So--" She leans over again, and she circles the Cyrillic-lettered names, and points with the pencil. "Russian." She circles the English names, with another pencil point. "English." Finally, she circles and indicates the names written in her hand. "And me."

She regards the page full of names and loopy circles for a moment, tapping the pencil thoughtfully.

"I wonder how much of it is due to the translating magic of the bar, and how much is actual similarity."

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"I have never figured that out," he admits, ruefully.

"I know that I speak English here, and that is what translates. That is what I hear. If I speak Russian, others seem to hear it as Russian. Another language, something else, and the same for writing. But I spoke those when I came in, and I live in America. I have never been sure how it decides to translate."

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"I've had a couple of people try to talk to me in Russian, and I can never understand a word of it," she says, and she reaches out to snag the sketchpad between thumb and forefinger, and pull it back into her lap. She shoots him a smile. "Besides what you've taught me, of course."

The page is becoming pretty crowded; Maya flips to the next, her pencil already lowering. "I always th--"

There are doodles in the corners and along the right side of the page: a small, sketchy head-and-shoulders drawing of a woman without real features; a quick figure of a man bending over to talk to a boy perched on a barstool; a cluster of daffodils.

It has all been drawn with the sort of skill that Maya has come to expect from Piotr, but what she sees is the pen-and-ink headshot taking up most of the page. It is a large-scale version of the little sketch of the woman, and it is unmistakably her. She's tossing a grin over her shoulder, joyful, looking on the edge of a laugh. Her eyes lack pupils and her hair -- wind-tousled and a little tangled -- falls to mid-cheek.

Her pencil hovers, momentarily frozen.

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--Oh hey. He'd forgotten that that drawing was in there. (Piotr draws kind of a lot.)

Um.

As before, he tries to read her reaction, and waits for it to become clearer. He likes that drawing -- he's satisfied with it, more than with most; he likes the expression he captured -- but he's not sure, yet, if Maya does.

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It looks like this was rendered with the same care and attention to detail as the first. Weird white eyes and shorn hair; an impossibly bright smile. Maya's heart twists queerly.

"Am I going to keep stumbling across these, Piotr?" she finally asks, lifting her face to look him in the eye, and from the upturned corners of her mouth and the faint flush in her cheeks -- she likes it.